I’m sorry I’ve been MIA in more ways than one. I was offered a job (pay raise, promotion) in Houston TX. I currently reside in Grand Rapids, MI. They want me to start May 25. Needless to say I’m a bit nerve-wracked, anxiety-ridden and just all around distracted. Plus I have to have a hard conversation with my roommate of over 10 years. My gut has been churning non-stop.
It's not a tragic thing for me, since I've needed for quite some time to make major changes in my life. Without this to kick me in the ass, I may just have coasted forever just because it's easy and I'm a lazy person. I don't have a house payment anymore. Of course, I will miss all the people I've become friends with, and change is always hard. I just leased a brand new car a few weeks ago, but the old car I had was starting to rack up the repair bills anyway. Technically speaking, I do have a roommate who now has a very good full-time job, but I don't really count on that to ease things much since he has a history of not being financially reliable.
Just some good thoughts from you while I catch my breath, I suppose. Thanks in advance!
It occurred to me awhile ago that I haven't been bothered by my OCD in quite some time. Not just *not bothered*.. but actual absence of symptoms. Isn't it funny how I didn't notice the absence right away? It seems that I would have promptly noticed that I wasn't being bothered anymore by something that has given me such grief in the past. I suppose that if something just isn't there anymore, your focus is no longer drawn to *it* but to other things, thereby making its absence less noticeable. I don't even know if I'm making any sense :D
Anyway... it's quite a relief, for now. That's not to say I'm no longer anxious or insecure; in fact, those two things are now thrust into the forefront since my OCD is no longer there to mask it. But I feel like I have some sort of control over those, whereas I felt like such a victim of my OCD. So that's a good thing, I guess.
I can't quite figure out why the change. I'm not on any meds. I was in therapy for awhile, but I haven't been back for quite a few months now. I honestly don't know why. As a scientist, it's a bit unnerving because I would like to think there's some sort of connection somewhere, something that I'm doing or something in my environment that's causing it. I don't like randomness, because that implies lack of control, which i HATE. I'd like to know if it's something I'm doing so that I can *continue* doing it. Otherwise, I'm at the mercy of fate's whims, which makes me very uneasy. I *do* know that I started feeling relief back when I resumed therapy again. But I discontinued that, so... I don't know.
Anyway, please drop me a line, I'd love to hear from you.
Just wanted to check in on folks, if anybody still hangs out around here. Drop me a comment and let me know what's up in your lives. Or email me, or something.
Work: holy cow, this is a tangled web. About two weeks ago we all came into work on Monday, to find out 15 people had been let go, including my supervisor's boyfriend, with whom she has three kids and a mortgage. All full time employees (including me) had their hours cut from 40 to 36 hours per week. And the 3:30 to midnight shift I've been working for over a decade? Next week it changes to noon to eight p.m.
And all full-time temps had to either switch to part-time (25 hours a week) or be reassigned. What the bloody...... what?
So yeah. Things at work right now are kinda tense.
So has the LoTR fandom been revived at all by the release of The Hobbit? Has anyone been freshly inspired? If so, point me to your stories! :D
Please do let me know you all are alive, and like I said, drop me a line sometime.
It's that time of year again. I'm sending out a call to anyone who would like to receive a holiday card from me this year. For Christmas, Yuletide, Hanukkah, whatever you want to call it. If you would like such a thing, leave a comment with your address (all comments will be screened, of course). I don't expect reciprocation, but if you want to, who am I to stop you?
Whether we've friended each other, or whether you're just a fly-by fic reader, I'm more than happy to indulge you. Comment away, please!